time tells all.

it finally hit me today. i've been asking for the true happiness and love and "on fire" feeling to become a part of me. today as i was driving to school. i was listening to "hallelujah" by phillips, craig and dean an it just finally was made clear that i have it now. i have no desire for the "other stuff" in my life anymore. i've realized how much better i feel when i give it all to you lord. how much more confidence i have that you are my strength and never leave me. i know that there are going to be times when i fall but for some reason this time i don't think i'm gonna fall on purpose or out of habit anymore. i'm going to fix the things that are a hinderance and no longer make excuses. i'm just happy that i didn't end up thinking it was hopeless. i've got it now and i'm not gonna let it go.